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Oh, my God!

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Bobbin! Come here! Yes!

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I'm... I'm Wendy.

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I live in the cottage
at the end of...

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I don't understand.

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They said he'd died.

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Baby, they said you'd died.

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I know,
and I didn't think that was right.

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- I'm sorry.
- Yeah, why would they do that?

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I probably shouldn't have come,
but he was so unhappy.

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I missed you too.
Oh, baby, I missed you so much.

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Jo, come away from the door.

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Wendy, you know
you're not supposed to be here.

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That's not Bobbin.

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Of course it's Bobbin.

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I know my dog.

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Come away from the door.

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Oh, no!

19
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No!

20
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- Oh, my God!
- His insides are coming out!

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Oh, my God!
Push them back in! Push them in!

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Help me!

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Jo?

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Jo?

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Are you okay?

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Bobbin is dead...

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isn't he?

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Yeah.

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He is.

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Did you kill him?

31
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What?

32
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No!

33
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Why would you say
something like that?

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I'm so sorry.

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Sorry.

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Thank you.

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- I really am sorry.
- That's okay.

38
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I've been having
these awful nightmares

39
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and it's hard
to make sense of things.

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Well... just drink your tea

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and take your time
and we'll start the day again.

42
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I wanna go to that support group
the doctor talked about.

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Really? Is it not too soon?

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<i>Amnesia,
the gift that keeps on giving.</i>

45
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It's been a week.

46
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I've been locked up in here
and I'm slowly going demented.

47
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Okay. You normally hate
that kind of thing.

48
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What kind of thing?

49
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Groups, strangers,

50
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having to wait for the sharing stick
before you speak.

51
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Well, I need to talk
to someone who's trained.

52
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Nothing's coming back to me.

53
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Okay, well, we'll do
whatever you need to do.

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Great. It's at 11:00. I'll get ready.

55
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Oh, you mean today?

56
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Nick.

57
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I love you! I miss you already!

58
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Fuck!

59
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Ready to rumble?

60
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Yeah.

61
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Why are we going this way?

62
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We've never been this way.

63
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There's road works. It's quicker.

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It's a weird road.

65
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Listen, I, uh, might have
to pop out tomorrow.

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Won't be for long. Is that all right?

67
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Jo? Is that okay?

68
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What?

69
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It's just some work stuff.
I won't be long.

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Okay.

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Mum.

72
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I really wanna see Finn.

73
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What?

74
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He's got a little bit trickier
this last 12 months.

75
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- I don't think it's drugs...
- Drugs?

76
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It's probably just puberty
finally kicking in.

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He's 18, Rob.

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He's, uh, 19 actually.

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God, I'm such a shit show.

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Hey, Jo.

81
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I can't remember
what's gone in the last 12 months.

82
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It doesn't really matter.
We need to live in the now.

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What are you, a man or a meme?

84
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Jo?

85
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Jo?

86
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- Rob, do you see that woman?
- Jo?

87
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- What?
- Who's that woman?

88
00:08:06,880 --> 00:08:09,080
- She knows me.
- What woman?

89
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What woman, Jo?

90
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No, nothing.

91
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Well, at least let me carry you in.

92
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It's literally right there, Rob.
I need to build my confidence.

93
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I'll wait here in case you hate it.
If you fall over, I'll pick you up.

94
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Fuck off.

95
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Nice stick, missus.

96
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Oh, miss, you got the time?

97
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- Give me your phone.
- What?

98
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Give me your phone and money.

99
00:09:22,880 --> 00:09:24,400
Give me your phone and purse now!

100
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Fuck off! You give me
your money and your phone!

101
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Please,
don't fucking piss me off, man!

102
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Shit! Go get a job, you arsehole!

103
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You know what really pisses me off?

104
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You just made me
sound like my mother!

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I hope
somebody's chalked you up one.

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Crazy bitch!

107
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Shit!

108
00:10:16,120 --> 00:10:18,080
<i>Maybe you were safer in the alley.</i>

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- Hiya.
- Hi.

110
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You're new.

111
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I'm Sharon. Pleased to meet ya.

112
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Hi, Sharon.

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I used to be
the manager of a coffee shop,

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but, uh, I can't even tie
my own shoelaces these days.

115
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Still, I was getting fed up
with the daily grind anyway.

116
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Daily grind... yeah?

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I'm Jo.

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Who in the name of Jesus
chooses these biscuits?

119
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And squash?

120
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What next, stickers for being brave?

121
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- Hi.
- Hi.

122
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I'm Helen. Welcome to the madhouse.

123
00:11:01,120 --> 00:11:02,080
Jo.

124
00:11:06,000 --> 00:11:07,120
Are you okay?

125
00:11:08,320 --> 00:11:12,600
I caught your altercation outside
and I was gonna come out,

126
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but I wouldn't be surprised
if we saw him here next week.

127
00:11:16,120 --> 00:11:20,600
It's an unusual
but interesting form of recruitment.

128
00:11:22,440 --> 00:11:24,360
I don't know what I...

129
00:11:26,320 --> 00:11:28,320
I should probably go
and check on him.

130
00:11:28,400 --> 00:11:29,200
Why?

131
00:11:31,640 --> 00:11:32,800
Okay, shall we start?

132
00:11:33,880 --> 00:11:37,280
Come on, let's go and talk
about our thoughts and feelings.

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Yay!

134
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Thanks, Olivia.

135
00:11:43,320 --> 00:11:44,520
You're coping brilliantly

136
00:11:44,600 --> 00:11:47,600
with a really complex
mother-daughter relationship.

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Just keep going.

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I don't feel
like sharing today, Michelle,

139
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before you ask.

140
00:11:58,280 --> 00:11:59,840
I've had a terrible week.

141
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That's fine, Jerry.

142
00:12:01,080 --> 00:12:03,080
We're here for you whenever you want.

143
00:12:07,440 --> 00:12:09,440
Uh, I'd like to.

144
00:12:11,200 --> 00:12:13,320
Please? If that's okay.

145
00:12:13,400 --> 00:12:14,200
Of course.

146
00:12:14,920 --> 00:12:16,640
Um, I'm Jo.

147
00:12:18,680 --> 00:12:19,480
I...

148
00:12:21,400 --> 00:12:22,280
wrote it down.

149
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I need reminding.

150
00:12:24,640 --> 00:12:27,040
I fell down the stairs and I'm...

151
00:12:27,800 --> 00:12:30,440
I landed on my head as you can see.

152
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So I have...

153
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amnesia...

154
00:12:36,560 --> 00:12:37,640
disinhibition...

155
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So they tell me.

156
00:12:40,560 --> 00:12:42,080
So you fell down the stairs?

157
00:12:43,120 --> 00:12:43,920
Yes.

158
00:12:47,800 --> 00:12:53,640
And I have...
paranoia and hallucinations.

159
00:12:55,840 --> 00:12:58,400
Basically, it's like I'm...

160
00:12:59,440 --> 00:13:02,840
I'm a stranger
in... inside my own head.

161
00:13:03,640 --> 00:13:05,560
A stranger inside your own head.

162
00:13:07,080 --> 00:13:08,840
Is there an echo in here?

163
00:13:08,920 --> 00:13:11,000
It's quite, uh, a common feeling.

164
00:13:12,880 --> 00:13:18,200
Well, I feel like I'm being left
to piece together

165
00:13:18,280 --> 00:13:21,560
whatever the hell is wrong with me
on my own.

166
00:13:21,640 --> 00:13:23,200
That's really shitty, Jo.

167
00:13:23,880 --> 00:13:25,520
They don't care, but you know that.

168
00:13:25,600 --> 00:13:26,960
That's not true, Jerry.

169
00:13:27,040 --> 00:13:30,120
Four years since my accident.
Four years.

170
00:13:30,200 --> 00:13:32,520
I can't even get them
on the phone these days.

171
00:13:32,600 --> 00:13:34,680
They say I'm better, but look at me!

172
00:13:34,760 --> 00:13:36,240
I mean, is this it?

173
00:13:36,320 --> 00:13:38,000
Is this it?

174
00:13:38,080 --> 00:13:40,120
- Come on.
- Is this really me now?

175
00:13:40,200 --> 00:13:41,840
- Is this me now?
- No, it's fine.

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00:13:41,920 --> 00:13:43,800
Don't get your hopes up,
Jo, just don't,

177
00:13:43,880 --> 00:13:48,320
because in this room
we are all fucked.

178
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Jerry!

179
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What?

180
00:13:51,200 --> 00:13:53,920
What? Motherfucker Michelle!

181
00:13:54,000 --> 00:13:55,720
You are a fuckface!

182
00:13:56,720 --> 00:13:58,080
Fucknut!

183
00:13:58,160 --> 00:13:59,160
Fuck off!

184
00:13:59,240 --> 00:14:04,080
Get out the fucking way!
Get... Bitch, fucking twat, fuck...

185
00:14:19,720 --> 00:14:21,160
- Oh, hi.
- Hey.

186
00:14:28,720 --> 00:14:32,680
You know, recovery
is different for everyone.

187
00:14:34,440 --> 00:14:36,760
God, I hate it
when my husband's right.

188
00:14:39,680 --> 00:14:44,920
It's like... trying to piece together
a broken vase, isn't it?

189
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In the dark.

190
00:14:47,160 --> 00:14:48,520
On a roller coaster.

191
00:14:51,840 --> 00:14:52,640
Call me...

192
00:14:54,280 --> 00:14:55,880
if you need to talk.

193
00:15:01,480 --> 00:15:02,280
Thank you...

194
00:15:03,200 --> 00:15:04,040
Helen.

195
00:15:06,000 --> 00:15:06,920
I'm...

196
00:15:10,360 --> 00:15:11,880
I don't know what happened to me.

197
00:15:14,280 --> 00:15:16,040
I was at the top of the stairs...

198
00:15:17,480 --> 00:15:19,120
and then I was at the bottom.

199
00:15:20,720 --> 00:15:21,520
Okay.

200
00:15:22,280 --> 00:15:23,200
I think...

201
00:15:24,840 --> 00:15:25,800
I might have...

202
00:15:27,520 --> 00:15:28,320
uh...

203
00:15:29,560 --> 00:15:31,000
I have a history of...

204
00:15:37,800 --> 00:15:40,880
I've done some quite... dark stuff.

205
00:15:41,880 --> 00:15:47,080
And, um... I worry
I could have done this to myself.

206
00:15:51,560 --> 00:15:52,360
Hello?

207
00:15:52,920 --> 00:15:55,080
Oh, hiya.
Uh, I've got a husband here.

208
00:16:01,400 --> 00:16:04,080
Hi, Jo.
Everybody came out and no you.

209
00:16:04,160 --> 00:16:04,960
I'm fine.

210
00:16:05,040 --> 00:16:07,480
Okay, and I've just bumped into...

211
00:16:07,560 --> 00:16:09,320
Sharon. Hello.

212
00:16:09,400 --> 00:16:11,440
I used to be
the manager of a coffee shop

213
00:16:11,520 --> 00:16:14,200
but, uh, can't even tie
me own shoelaces these days.

214
00:16:15,280 --> 00:16:18,000
Still, I was getting fed up
of the daily grind anyway.

215
00:16:19,200 --> 00:16:20,360
The daily grind.

216
00:16:20,920 --> 00:16:22,920
Get it?
It's cause it's a coffee shop.

217
00:16:23,920 --> 00:16:26,280
Jo. Pleased to meet you, Sharon.

218
00:16:31,760 --> 00:16:32,840
What is it?

219
00:16:32,920 --> 00:16:33,800
Was it that bad?

220
00:16:34,360 --> 00:16:35,360
No. It's just...

221
00:16:36,680 --> 00:16:38,160
those poor people.

222
00:16:40,840 --> 00:16:42,840
And that coffee shop woman...

223
00:16:43,760 --> 00:16:46,080
Imagine being stuck
inside that shit joke

224
00:16:46,160 --> 00:16:47,360
for the rest of your life.

225
00:16:48,200 --> 00:16:49,160
That's not you.

226
00:16:50,800 --> 00:16:53,720
But what if I'm not who I was?

227
00:16:54,520 --> 00:16:56,080
What if I'm dangerous?

228
00:16:57,440 --> 00:16:58,640
You're not dangerous.

229
00:17:01,080 --> 00:17:03,640
Can we go home
the normal way, please?

230
00:17:03,720 --> 00:17:05,000
The one I know.

231
00:17:05,080 --> 00:17:06,360
- Yeah.
- Thank you.

232
00:17:32,400 --> 00:17:33,560
Look.

233
00:17:33,640 --> 00:17:35,360
Finn has come down to see me!

234
00:17:38,200 --> 00:17:41,400
Listen, he's gonna have a few things
to talk to you about, okay?

235
00:17:43,320 --> 00:17:44,160
Darling!

236
00:17:46,360 --> 00:17:48,160
Oh. Here!

237
00:18:04,040 --> 00:18:04,840
Mum.

238
00:18:05,440 --> 00:18:06,520
What the hell is that?

239
00:18:07,080 --> 00:18:10,400
I have no idea.
It just came to me when I sat down.

240
00:18:12,120 --> 00:18:12,920
Watch me go.

241
00:18:24,400 --> 00:18:25,520
Come on.

242
00:18:49,400 --> 00:18:52,120
Look, there's...
something I want to...

243
00:18:58,800 --> 00:18:59,880
I left university.

244
00:19:02,600 --> 00:19:03,400
I quit.

245
00:19:04,680 --> 00:19:06,160
I actually only did one term.

246
00:19:09,520 --> 00:19:10,320
You quit?

247
00:19:12,520 --> 00:19:13,600
I told Dad not to...

248
00:19:15,720 --> 00:19:17,080
I wanted to tell you myself.

249
00:19:23,120 --> 00:19:25,960
But then why aren't you here,
at home?

250
00:19:27,480 --> 00:19:29,240
I don't live here anymore.

251
00:19:29,320 --> 00:19:30,120
I moved out.

252
00:19:34,520 --> 00:19:35,880
I'm just gonna check on lunch.

253
00:20:06,080 --> 00:20:07,160
<i>I love you.</i>

254
00:20:26,560 --> 00:20:27,400
What if the...?

255
00:20:28,160 --> 00:20:29,840
What if the old Mum
never comes back?

256
00:20:29,920 --> 00:20:32,760
Hi, Finn. Yeah.
Welcome to the situation.

257
00:20:32,840 --> 00:20:34,240
What if that happens?

258
00:20:35,240 --> 00:20:36,120
Any ideas?

259
00:20:37,640 --> 00:20:38,560
What are we having?

260
00:20:38,640 --> 00:20:39,560
Lasagne.

261
00:20:40,440 --> 00:20:42,320
Great. What about Mum?
What's she having?

262
00:20:42,400 --> 00:20:43,200
Lasagne.

263
00:20:43,720 --> 00:20:45,240
She's started eating meat again?

264
00:20:46,000 --> 00:20:48,840
Oh, come on, it was a fad.
She was wavering.

265
00:20:49,360 --> 00:20:50,720
That's so shady.

266
00:20:50,800 --> 00:20:52,160
It's familiar. It'll help.

267
00:20:53,560 --> 00:20:55,320
And let's keep things civil, eh?

268
00:20:59,560 --> 00:21:02,080
Are we going to talk
about you dropping out of uni?

269
00:21:06,480 --> 00:21:07,280
No.

270
00:21:09,920 --> 00:21:11,840
But we probably should talk about...

271
00:21:14,440 --> 00:21:15,240
What?

272
00:21:19,360 --> 00:21:23,800
Mum, you've spent your whole life
fussing over me, pushing me.

273
00:21:24,320 --> 00:21:26,120
I didn't even want
to go to university,

274
00:21:26,200 --> 00:21:27,480
but you didn't listen.

275
00:21:27,560 --> 00:21:29,640
You just pushed me and pushed me.

276
00:21:30,440 --> 00:21:32,160
You think you're helping,

277
00:21:32,240 --> 00:21:34,680
but you've done it
in the most passive aggressive way.

278
00:21:34,760 --> 00:21:36,960
- That's a bit harsh, Finn.
- Well, it's true.

279
00:21:45,080 --> 00:21:47,080
No one tells you,
when you're pregnant,

280
00:21:48,080 --> 00:21:50,080
that you're going
to pour your heart and soul

281
00:21:50,160 --> 00:21:52,560
into helping your little babies

282
00:21:52,640 --> 00:21:58,040
grow into happy, articulate,
educated people in their own right.

283
00:21:58,640 --> 00:22:00,040
But then one day

284
00:22:00,120 --> 00:22:02,880
all that love and hard work
is gonna...

285
00:22:04,280 --> 00:22:06,400
be thrown right back in your face.

286
00:22:15,200 --> 00:22:16,000
You know,

287
00:22:17,040 --> 00:22:18,200
I have wondered...

288
00:22:19,480 --> 00:22:21,240
what kind of life I'd have if...

289
00:22:22,400 --> 00:22:24,560
if you'd all died in a car crash.

290
00:22:25,320 --> 00:22:27,160
I've thought
about like what kind of life

291
00:22:27,240 --> 00:22:29,080
I would have carved out
for myself if...

292
00:22:30,600 --> 00:22:33,880
I mean,
once the initial grief had passed.

293
00:22:33,960 --> 00:22:35,960
That's a terrible thing to say.

294
00:22:37,280 --> 00:22:39,040
This is all part
of the disinhibition.

295
00:22:42,240 --> 00:22:43,040
Jo.

296
00:22:44,680 --> 00:22:48,120
You know, on the surface,
this family looks so perfect.

297
00:22:49,080 --> 00:22:52,720
- But underneath it's...
- I have no idea where that came from.

298
00:22:53,880 --> 00:22:55,680
That's so dysfunctional.

299
00:22:55,760 --> 00:22:58,000
There's been
a lot of dysfunction lately, Mum.

300
00:23:00,480 --> 00:23:02,560
By the way,
I told you I'm gay last year.

301
00:23:02,640 --> 00:23:04,440
That should probably be on your wall.

302
00:23:08,280 --> 00:23:09,480
Oh, Finn.

303
00:23:11,640 --> 00:23:12,560
Oh, baby.

304
00:23:21,080 --> 00:23:24,440
I'd... really appreciate that

305
00:23:24,520 --> 00:23:27,720
if you would put that
up on the wall.

306
00:23:31,840 --> 00:23:33,600
- You don't remember what you...?
- Finn.

307
00:23:39,280 --> 00:23:40,080
Oh, God.

308
00:24:46,080 --> 00:24:46,920
Finn.

309
00:24:49,400 --> 00:24:50,480
What are you doing?

310
00:24:54,840 --> 00:24:56,440
You should know this stuff.

311
00:24:56,520 --> 00:24:57,360
What stuff?

312
00:25:07,960 --> 00:25:08,760
Finn?

313
00:25:09,840 --> 00:25:10,800
What did I do?

314
00:25:11,920 --> 00:25:13,160
What did I do?

315
00:25:14,720 --> 00:25:16,800
You've got to tell me.
Please, tell me.

316
00:25:16,880 --> 00:25:18,240
What did I do?

317
00:25:18,320 --> 00:25:21,400
- Tell me, please. Tell me.
- Tell you what, Jo?

318
00:25:26,160 --> 00:25:27,840
Love, you were sleepwalking.

319
00:25:33,960 --> 00:25:36,080
Okay? You should go to bed.

320
00:26:15,120 --> 00:26:16,800
You make tea just like my mum.

321
00:26:18,440 --> 00:26:19,640
Is that good?

322
00:26:21,120 --> 00:26:21,920
Bad?

323
00:26:25,840 --> 00:26:26,720
Is your mother

324
00:26:27,600 --> 00:26:31,640
pushy, demanding,
awful, arsehole like me?

325
00:26:36,280 --> 00:26:37,440
Actually, she's dead.

326
00:26:38,600 --> 00:26:39,400
My mum died.

327
00:26:42,840 --> 00:26:44,680
Oh, my God, I'm so sorry.

328
00:26:46,040 --> 00:26:47,080
Fuck.

329
00:26:50,000 --> 00:26:50,960
How'd she die?

330
00:26:52,640 --> 00:26:55,760
Do you remember those early sunbeds,
the one you lift the lid up on?

331
00:26:55,840 --> 00:26:58,040
- Yeah.
- Well, she was laying in one and...

332
00:26:59,040 --> 00:27:00,160
she sneezed.

333
00:27:01,040 --> 00:27:02,720
Being a woman
who had four children,

334
00:27:02,800 --> 00:27:05,240
it was only
a very little pelvic floor action,

335
00:27:05,320 --> 00:27:08,560
a small amount of urine escaped
and that was that.

336
00:27:09,240 --> 00:27:10,040
Lights out,

337
00:27:10,120 --> 00:27:12,200
literally, she fused
the entire building.

338
00:27:13,400 --> 00:27:14,280
When we buried her,

339
00:27:14,360 --> 00:27:17,160
it looked like she'd done
six months on a Caribbean cruise.

340
00:27:20,720 --> 00:27:21,640
Jesus!

341
00:27:23,160 --> 00:27:24,720
Oh, that's terrible!

342
00:27:25,880 --> 00:27:27,160
She actually had cancer.

343
00:27:28,200 --> 00:27:30,560
But she made me promise
that if anyone asked

344
00:27:30,640 --> 00:27:33,920
I'd make up a different ridiculous
story every single time, so...

345
00:27:34,000 --> 00:27:35,800
She had a funny sense of humour.

346
00:27:35,880 --> 00:27:37,880
She wanted me
to remember that part of her.

347
00:27:39,320 --> 00:27:41,200
Not the chemo.
Not the last few months.

348
00:27:44,800 --> 00:27:46,400
My mother died of cancer too.

349
00:27:55,720 --> 00:27:57,600
My dad has dementia...

350
00:27:58,760 --> 00:27:59,560
and...

351
00:28:01,120 --> 00:28:02,600
I'm scared of going to see him.

352
00:28:05,280 --> 00:28:09,080
I'm scared he won't recognise me
even if I'm standing right there.

353
00:28:15,760 --> 00:28:17,640
- I'm gonna...
- Yeah, see you later.

354
00:28:18,360 --> 00:28:19,320
Thanks for the tea.

355
00:28:33,840 --> 00:28:34,640
Totally would.

356
00:28:35,800 --> 00:28:36,960
Given half the chance.

357
00:28:38,960 --> 00:28:41,000
He could trim my bush any day.

358
00:28:42,480 --> 00:28:43,800
Yep.

359
00:28:43,880 --> 00:28:46,760
He could put his seed
in my flower bed.

360
00:28:47,560 --> 00:28:49,960
And then fuck me
in a threesome with his twin.

361
00:28:50,040 --> 00:28:51,640
Please! Just stop.

362
00:28:52,600 --> 00:28:53,440
What?

363
00:28:53,520 --> 00:28:54,920
Jesus!

364
00:28:55,000 --> 00:28:56,880
Jo, I'm just having a bit of fun.

365
00:28:58,800 --> 00:28:59,680
Please, just...

366
00:29:01,080 --> 00:29:03,320
stop pretending
it's business as usual.

367
00:29:04,240 --> 00:29:05,600
It isn't, is it?

368
00:29:07,720 --> 00:29:10,120
We didn't talk for months last year.

369
00:29:11,760 --> 00:29:12,560
Why was that?

370
00:29:14,360 --> 00:29:16,360
- Did I go bonkers again?
- No.

371
00:29:17,720 --> 00:29:18,560
No!

372
00:29:24,800 --> 00:29:27,680
Right, you did
something that I actually...

373
00:29:28,800 --> 00:29:30,000
thought was quite cruel.

374
00:29:31,160 --> 00:29:32,040
Well, tell me.

375
00:29:32,560 --> 00:29:35,680
Finn got into a relationship
with someone and you didn't like it.

376
00:29:36,640 --> 00:29:39,360
He told me he's gay yesterday, but...

377
00:29:42,280 --> 00:29:44,600
- I don't have a problem with that.
- Yeah.

378
00:29:45,160 --> 00:29:48,920
But... the person
he was involved with was Josh.

379
00:29:50,440 --> 00:29:51,280
Your Josh?

380
00:29:52,040 --> 00:29:53,080
Yeah.

381
00:29:55,000 --> 00:29:59,040
But he's almost 30
and he's such a player.

382
00:29:59,120 --> 00:30:01,840
He's actually 26, and that wasn't...

383
00:30:01,920 --> 00:30:02,720
Wait.

384
00:30:05,640 --> 00:30:09,120
Did Finn leave uni to be with Josh?

385
00:30:10,720 --> 00:30:11,520
Yeah.

386
00:30:16,040 --> 00:30:17,480
You tried to split them up.

387
00:30:18,920 --> 00:30:20,400
That's why we weren't talking.

388
00:30:21,840 --> 00:30:23,120
It was really a big deal.

389
00:30:24,120 --> 00:30:25,400
You wanted me to tell Josh

390
00:30:25,480 --> 00:30:27,400
to put the brakes
on his relationship.

391
00:30:27,480 --> 00:30:29,200
Finn he's gonna break your heart.

392
00:30:30,320 --> 00:30:31,360
But I love him!

393
00:30:31,440 --> 00:30:33,680
And then Josh stopped speaking to me,

394
00:30:34,520 --> 00:30:36,200
and then Finn found out

395
00:30:36,800 --> 00:30:39,320
and I don't think
he's spoken to you for six months.

396
00:30:42,200 --> 00:30:44,840
Sorry, Cathy. I'm gonna have
to steal Jo from you now.

397
00:30:44,920 --> 00:30:46,120
Steal away.

398
00:30:48,520 --> 00:30:49,560
I was just leaving.

399
00:30:58,800 --> 00:31:02,480
Okay. Exhibit... D.

400
00:31:03,000 --> 00:31:06,640
A receipt
for two very expensive meals

401
00:31:06,720 --> 00:31:08,400
in a swanky French restaurant.

402
00:31:09,000 --> 00:31:11,080
- Really?
- And before dinner,

403
00:31:11,840 --> 00:31:14,360
your amazing
husband took you to exhibit E,

404
00:31:14,440 --> 00:31:16,440
a very pretentious art exhibition.

405
00:31:23,360 --> 00:31:25,200
- Did we, uh...?
- No.

406
00:31:25,760 --> 00:31:28,040
We, uh...
I wanted to take you, but, uh...

407
00:31:28,840 --> 00:31:31,840
Right. And what's next?

408
00:31:32,640 --> 00:31:35,560
Uh... theatre stubs.

409
00:31:36,360 --> 00:31:37,640
Eastbourne playhouse.

410
00:31:38,600 --> 00:31:40,480
I'm so glad
we just painted this wall.

411
00:31:41,640 --> 00:31:43,720
<i>The Importance of Being Earnest.</i>

412
00:31:43,800 --> 00:31:46,080
We left early
for the importance of our sanity.

413
00:31:47,640 --> 00:31:50,480
Last year wasn't all dead dogs
and uni dropouts, you know.

414
00:31:50,560 --> 00:31:51,960
We did have some laughs.

415
00:31:53,960 --> 00:31:55,120
Thank you.

416
00:32:03,480 --> 00:32:05,840
...to split up...

417
00:32:07,520 --> 00:32:11,360
Finn and Josh.

418
00:32:14,920 --> 00:32:16,560
- I'm a terrible mum.
- No.

419
00:32:17,080 --> 00:32:19,000
You were just thinking of his future.

420
00:32:23,880 --> 00:32:25,040
There's something else.

421
00:32:27,280 --> 00:32:30,120
You agreed... to lend me,

422
00:32:30,200 --> 00:32:31,120
the company...

423
00:32:32,280 --> 00:32:33,480
some money last year.

424
00:32:34,240 --> 00:32:35,400
Just to tide us over.

425
00:32:36,160 --> 00:32:37,040
I, uh...

426
00:32:38,840 --> 00:32:39,800
I need some more.

427
00:32:41,480 --> 00:32:43,440
So if you could just...

428
00:32:47,600 --> 00:32:48,400
Okay.

429
00:32:50,080 --> 00:32:51,320
What am I signing?

430
00:32:51,400 --> 00:32:54,200
It's just... a small loan.

431
00:32:56,840 --> 00:32:57,640
Okay.

432
00:32:58,520 --> 00:33:00,560
I am sorry,
my head really hurts.

433
00:33:02,080 --> 00:33:04,440
Is it okay to look at this
a little bit later?

434
00:33:05,040 --> 00:33:06,080
Yeah.

435
00:33:08,760 --> 00:33:09,760
Drink some water.

436
00:33:56,120 --> 00:33:59,120
Anyway, the husband
that was having the party announced,

437
00:33:59,200 --> 00:34:02,280
sometimes we get asked
how come you've stayed together

438
00:34:02,360 --> 00:34:04,080
for such a long time, right?

439
00:34:04,160 --> 00:34:05,920
He said something I'll never forget.

440
00:34:07,960 --> 00:34:10,240
Go on Jim. We're all ears.

441
00:34:11,160 --> 00:34:12,360
He said the secret is...

442
00:34:24,640 --> 00:34:29,120
The secret is never fall out of love
at the same time.

443
00:34:29,720 --> 00:34:30,560
Very good.

444
00:34:47,920 --> 00:34:48,800
Whoa.

445
00:34:54,880 --> 00:34:55,680
Rob?

446
00:34:59,760 --> 00:35:04,720
Did we have dinner
with Cathy and Jim somewhere nice?

447
00:35:06,640 --> 00:35:07,440
Yeah, we...

448
00:35:08,160 --> 00:35:09,320
For their anniversary.

449
00:35:10,840 --> 00:35:14,480
Well, then... I just had
my first proper memory.

450
00:35:16,520 --> 00:35:18,600
At least
the first I can make any sense of.

451
00:35:19,360 --> 00:35:22,040
- Are you gonna tell me what it is?
- Yeah.

452
00:35:22,120 --> 00:35:26,600
It was, um, Jim
telling some shit story.

453
00:35:26,680 --> 00:35:29,080
We were all sitting around
with ridiculous grins

454
00:35:29,160 --> 00:35:33,480
while he was going on
about how people stay together.

455
00:35:33,560 --> 00:35:35,920
I can't believe
that of all things you could remember

456
00:35:36,000 --> 00:35:38,320
you've remembered
one of Jim's boring anecdotes.

457
00:35:38,400 --> 00:35:39,400
I know.

458
00:35:40,000 --> 00:35:42,560
<i>You can't tell him
the other things you've remembered,</i>

459
00:35:42,640 --> 00:35:43,440
<i>can you?</i>

460
00:35:44,960 --> 00:35:46,800
Have you taken your pills?

461
00:35:46,880 --> 00:35:47,960
I'm just about to.

462
00:35:49,480 --> 00:35:50,280
Fuck.

463
00:35:51,440 --> 00:35:53,880
Right. Are you sure
you're gonna be okay on your own?

464
00:35:53,960 --> 00:35:55,720
You're going to the post office.

465
00:35:56,400 --> 00:35:57,880
I'll call you if I need you.

466
00:38:26,800 --> 00:38:27,640
What you up to?

467
00:38:29,640 --> 00:38:31,040
I thought you left.

468
00:38:31,120 --> 00:38:32,280
No, I'm just about to.

469
00:38:38,000 --> 00:38:41,800
Listen, nobody wants you to remember
the last year more than I do.

470
00:38:43,120 --> 00:38:43,920
I know that.

471
00:38:44,000 --> 00:38:46,040
But it's a lot of pressure
to put on yourself.

472
00:38:46,120 --> 00:38:47,120
Maybe take it easy.

473
00:38:49,400 --> 00:38:50,600
Don't forget your tablets.

474
00:38:51,520 --> 00:38:52,320
All right.

475
00:38:55,920 --> 00:38:57,760
- I just don't want you to...
- To what?

476
00:38:58,480 --> 00:39:01,800
- You don't want me to what, Rob?
- Nothing.

477
00:39:05,400 --> 00:39:07,160
They're pain killers, you know.

478
00:39:09,000 --> 00:39:11,200
- They're not antidepressants.
- I know.

479
00:39:11,280 --> 00:39:14,600
- This is completely different.
- Yes, it's completely different.

480
00:39:17,360 --> 00:39:19,240
I'm not depressed.

481
00:39:19,320 --> 00:39:20,240
Sorry.

482
00:39:21,160 --> 00:39:23,040
Oh, my God, this is not 15 years ago.

483
00:39:25,040 --> 00:39:26,800
This is not

484
00:39:27,640 --> 00:39:29,800
that which cannot be mentioned.

485
00:39:35,360 --> 00:39:36,320
Okay.

486
00:39:36,400 --> 00:39:38,920
I will take them. Here. No, look.

487
00:39:45,360 --> 00:39:46,160
Happy?

488
00:39:46,240 --> 00:39:47,680
Yeah. Thank you.

489
00:39:49,240 --> 00:39:50,160
I'll see you later.

490
00:40:09,040 --> 00:40:10,760
<i>Definitely the right thing to do.</i>

491
00:40:11,760 --> 00:40:13,320
<i>Way too many side effects.</i>

492
00:40:14,200 --> 00:40:16,680
<i>Better to be in pain
than confused, right?</i>

493
00:41:08,480 --> 00:41:09,280
Jo!

494
00:41:14,680 --> 00:41:16,400
Shit, Jo. Are you okay?

495
00:41:17,360 --> 00:41:20,280
- Yeah.
- Sorry. I should've called first.

496
00:41:20,840 --> 00:41:24,240
Well... actually, I've been calling
your mobile constantly.

497
00:41:24,320 --> 00:41:25,120
What's happened?

498
00:41:26,280 --> 00:41:28,200
I lost my phone.

499
00:41:29,000 --> 00:41:29,800
Big mystery.

500
00:41:30,640 --> 00:41:31,440
Look.

501
00:41:32,200 --> 00:41:33,080
New one.

502
00:41:36,720 --> 00:41:37,880
I'm sorry, I...

503
00:41:39,680 --> 00:41:41,240
I have no idea who you are.

504
00:41:41,320 --> 00:41:42,240
What?

505
00:41:42,320 --> 00:41:43,440
Who are you?

506
00:41:43,520 --> 00:41:44,880
It's Rose, Jo.

507
00:41:45,480 --> 00:41:47,040
It's Rose. Hello.

508
00:41:55,080 --> 00:41:56,080
You don't remember?

509
00:41:56,880 --> 00:41:58,360
I fell down the stairs.

510
00:42:01,040 --> 00:42:01,840
Right.

511
00:42:04,320 --> 00:42:06,040
I'm sorry, how do I know you again?

512
00:42:06,120 --> 00:42:08,360
We work together, Jo.
Well, we're, um...

513
00:42:08,440 --> 00:42:12,240
I'm a translator.
I work from home on my own.

514
00:42:12,320 --> 00:42:14,280
No, we've been colleagues
for months, Jo.

515
00:42:14,360 --> 00:42:15,160
In town.

516
00:42:16,200 --> 00:42:17,360
We're also friends.

517
00:42:21,800 --> 00:42:25,440
Well, I guess I'd better let you in

518
00:42:25,520 --> 00:42:27,520
so you can tell me
what it is that I do.

519
00:42:37,080 --> 00:42:38,360
I love your place.

520
00:42:46,720 --> 00:42:48,240
Please, come on through.

521
00:43:03,560 --> 00:43:05,640
All right, why don't you tell me

522
00:43:05,720 --> 00:43:12,720
about where I work and what I do
and, uh, when I started?

523
00:43:12,800 --> 00:43:15,640
Yeah, it's a charity.
It's for Syrian refugees.

524
00:43:17,880 --> 00:43:19,040
Oh, right.

525
00:43:19,600 --> 00:43:20,680
Yeah, it's really tiny.

526
00:43:20,760 --> 00:43:25,480
It's basically just you,
me, Nick, a few others.

527
00:43:26,840 --> 00:43:28,160
And Nick is...?

528
00:43:28,240 --> 00:43:29,480
He's the founder.

529
00:43:31,880 --> 00:43:32,680
The boss.

530
00:43:36,280 --> 00:43:37,080
There.

531
00:43:38,960 --> 00:43:39,800
Thank you.

532
00:43:43,240 --> 00:43:44,280
You've been amazing.

533
00:43:45,080 --> 00:43:46,440
Everyone thought it.

534
00:43:47,000 --> 00:43:48,640
You turned the whole place around.

535
00:43:48,720 --> 00:43:50,840
Organised
that amazing fundraising do.

536
00:43:52,520 --> 00:43:53,320
What?

537
00:43:53,400 --> 00:43:55,240
Yeah, that's why
I couldn't figure out

538
00:43:55,320 --> 00:43:56,560
why you stopped coming in.

539
00:43:56,640 --> 00:44:00,840
But Nick said that you just decided
that it wasn't for you anymore.

540
00:44:03,560 --> 00:44:05,760
Hasn't anyone mentioned
that you had a new job?

541
00:44:05,840 --> 00:44:07,720
Don't you think that's a bit...?

542
00:44:08,880 --> 00:44:11,240
And you really
don't remember anything?

543
00:44:13,360 --> 00:44:14,280
Anything?

544
00:44:16,080 --> 00:44:16,880
I...

545
00:44:18,440 --> 00:44:22,560
I think you should leave now.
I feel really tired.

546
00:44:22,640 --> 00:44:24,160
You need to get another dog.

547
00:44:24,240 --> 00:44:26,520
It must be lonely rattling around
here on your own.

548
00:44:26,600 --> 00:44:28,040
Please, can you leave now?

549
00:44:28,120 --> 00:44:30,800
And that's when you dyed your hair...
You've, uh...

550
00:44:31,360 --> 00:44:32,640
- Please?
- Got to put that in.

551
00:44:32,720 --> 00:44:35,520
Please, just get out
of my fucking house.

552
00:44:35,600 --> 00:44:37,320
Get out of my fucking house!

553
00:44:45,280 --> 00:44:46,120
I, uh...

554
00:44:50,840 --> 00:44:52,600
Get out of my fucking house!

555
00:44:52,680 --> 00:44:53,480
Whoa.

556
00:44:54,760 --> 00:44:56,600
That is not
how you speak to friends.

557
00:44:59,000 --> 00:45:00,640
Out! Go!

558
00:45:00,720 --> 00:45:01,520
Get out!

559
00:45:09,160 --> 00:45:10,800
<i>You weren't on our own that night...</i>

560
00:45:12,040 --> 00:45:12,840
<i>were you?</i>

561
00:45:26,520 --> 00:45:30,440